Moving

Im moving over to xanga for the time being to see how I like it... you can find it at Addie's new blog so come visit and say hey... :)

If you want to....

cry, go see Emily

be happy for someone, go see Maggie

laugh, go see Amanda

argue, go see Grant

welcome a new member, go see traci

call someone a player, go see bennett

see some pretty pictures, go see brent

leave a comment, well, then hit the comment button, silly... :)

Ive about had enough

blogger is continually making me ill - Im almost to my breaking point and about to move to xanga... grr

Ever wonder?

Ever wonder who Gabe looks more like? Ill give you a hint... here are some of him and one of my baby pics...







(sorry I dont have any of Daniel scanned in... maybe I will get to that soon... )

Picture Post

Just got some new pics developed...


see the rest of the Easter pics here



and see the rest of the new Gabe pics here

back atcha'

this was inspired by Emily and I would like to see where it goes... :)


If you read this,(yes this means YOU)
even if I don't speak to you often,
please post a memory of me.
It can be anything you want, it can be good or bad,
just so long as it happened.
Then post this in your journal. See what people remember about you.

Brand New Day

So I took down yesterday's post as it was just bumming me out... but thanks to Emily, Amanda G, and Bennett - you guys made me smile...

Still not sure what was up with yesterday, I think most of it stemmed from me wondering if I was wasting away my life.... mostly just sitting in front of a computer - mind you I was bored out of my mind yesterday as I had done all my work (even a few other people's) and the internet was down...

I do realize how lucky I am though... seriously, I dont know of anyone more fortunate than I am.... get ready to be jealous - you may even just want to skip this whole post for today...

1. I am married to the most wonderful person I know, I do not think there is a bad thing about him... he is a morning person, he loves the baby - even offers to change diapers, he tells me all the good things I am and does all the housework (although he is usually the one messing it up - ha ha), and he is our church's youth director... in short, he's my best friend

2. I have the most beautiful well-tempered baby I have ever known, and though he is sick alot, he isnt plagued with something major that so many other people have to go through... he only cries when he is hungry or tired - and he is always so smiley... he has been saying "mamamamama" for quite awhile now (although its not really connected to me yet), no sign of "da-da" though, he is learning sign language well, and he recently started pulling up to standing... so smart

3. Im saved - hallelujah... and I have a great church with people that love us

4. I have a good job, all I do is sit at a computer all day... free internet, free copying (which I use for the youth group alot), great people to work with, flexible schedule, wonderful insurance and benefits, and I get paid for it... although boring at times, I cant complain too much

5. Im healthy - yay... much better than riches

6. I have some great friends out there, old and new... :)

and thats just the tip of the iceberg... I hate to be in this human body that only wants to complain all the time - I want to be the "second man" that Paul talks about...

oh, and I did one of those internet aging things, and here is what I will look like when Im 36...


so yeah, yay for me... ;)

Here's to you Jason

I am sad today... I just found out this weekend that one of my high school friends will be going home soon - he is dying. He has 1-3 weeks left here on this earth, in that body.

Jason was always the typical "nerd" of our class. He was very preppy and super-smart. But beyond the exterior was a wonderful person. I want to say I didnt know him that well, but then I want to say I did... We didnt hang out alot on the weekends or anything, but we were in the same inner circle of friends. We often sat next too each other, usually talking about silliness or homework. Or we would fill each other in on what we did over the weekend... he usually was out in a field somewhere playing paintball or getting into something with Austin; I, on the other hand, usually had spent time with my boyfriend of the moment. I think Jason had a crush on me for alot of our high school time together, although I never felt the same way about him. I was always more into the bad boys - never having any sense to go for the guys who would actually treat me like a lady. Jason and I did go on an unofficial date at one time though. We were both out of high school, him in the military (no surprise there), and I in college... I came home that weekend just to accompany him to his military ball. I felt awkward as I really didnt know anyone and being so tiny. But Jason was just as proud as ever to have me as his date. He showed me the proper way of doing things - all the little customs that I had no idea even existed, let alone knew that they must be followed with precise execution. We had a great time as always - laughing and cutting up. After that weekend, I went back to college and things proceeded as usual... we lost touch and last year, I found out that Jason had cancer. Somehow, I didnt know it could touch so close to home... in high school, you feel invincible. I guess when high school is over, the memories just stay there - untouched... and you think they will continue that way until you meet for your 50 year reunion or so - everyone will come back older but better - the "nerds" in the class will now look great and be rich, the "pretty girls" will look worse than you, and the "jocks" are now all bald and fat - making you thank God that you didnt end up with one of them like you prayed for all those years ago.... or at least thats how I always imagined it going - maybe I watch too much tv... and now that image is being shattered as one of our own wont be there...