Here's to you Jason
I am sad today... I just found out this weekend that one of my high school friends will be going home soon - he is dying. He has 1-3 weeks left here on this earth, in that body.
Jason was always the typical "nerd" of our class. He was very preppy and super-smart. But beyond the exterior was a wonderful person. I want to say I didnt know him that well, but then I want to say I did... We didnt hang out alot on the weekends or anything, but we were in the same inner circle of friends. We often sat next too each other, usually talking about silliness or homework. Or we would fill each other in on what we did over the weekend... he usually was out in a field somewhere playing paintball or getting into something with Austin; I, on the other hand, usually had spent time with my boyfriend of the moment. I think Jason had a crush on me for alot of our high school time together, although I never felt the same way about him. I was always more into the bad boys - never having any sense to go for the guys who would actually treat me like a lady. Jason and I did go on an unofficial date at one time though. We were both out of high school, him in the military (no surprise there), and I in college... I came home that weekend just to accompany him to his military ball. I felt awkward as I really didnt know anyone and being so tiny. But Jason was just as proud as ever to have me as his date. He showed me the proper way of doing things - all the little customs that I had no idea even existed, let alone knew that they must be followed with precise execution. We had a great time as always - laughing and cutting up. After that weekend, I went back to college and things proceeded as usual... we lost touch and last year, I found out that Jason had cancer. Somehow, I didnt know it could touch so close to home... in high school, you feel invincible. I guess when high school is over, the memories just stay there - untouched... and you think they will continue that way until you meet for your 50 year reunion or so - everyone will come back older but better - the "nerds" in the class will now look great and be rich, the "pretty girls" will look worse than you, and the "jocks" are now all bald and fat - making you thank God that you didnt end up with one of them like you prayed for all those years ago.... or at least thats how I always imagined it going - maybe I watch too much tv... and now that image is being shattered as one of our own wont be there...
Jason was always the typical "nerd" of our class. He was very preppy and super-smart. But beyond the exterior was a wonderful person. I want to say I didnt know him that well, but then I want to say I did... We didnt hang out alot on the weekends or anything, but we were in the same inner circle of friends. We often sat next too each other, usually talking about silliness or homework. Or we would fill each other in on what we did over the weekend... he usually was out in a field somewhere playing paintball or getting into something with Austin; I, on the other hand, usually had spent time with my boyfriend of the moment. I think Jason had a crush on me for alot of our high school time together, although I never felt the same way about him. I was always more into the bad boys - never having any sense to go for the guys who would actually treat me like a lady. Jason and I did go on an unofficial date at one time though. We were both out of high school, him in the military (no surprise there), and I in college... I came home that weekend just to accompany him to his military ball. I felt awkward as I really didnt know anyone and being so tiny. But Jason was just as proud as ever to have me as his date. He showed me the proper way of doing things - all the little customs that I had no idea even existed, let alone knew that they must be followed with precise execution. We had a great time as always - laughing and cutting up. After that weekend, I went back to college and things proceeded as usual... we lost touch and last year, I found out that Jason had cancer. Somehow, I didnt know it could touch so close to home... in high school, you feel invincible. I guess when high school is over, the memories just stay there - untouched... and you think they will continue that way until you meet for your 50 year reunion or so - everyone will come back older but better - the "nerds" in the class will now look great and be rich, the "pretty girls" will look worse than you, and the "jocks" are now all bald and fat - making you thank God that you didnt end up with one of them like you prayed for all those years ago.... or at least thats how I always imagined it going - maybe I watch too much tv... and now that image is being shattered as one of our own wont be there...
posted by dangermama at 12:18 PM
4 Comments:
Hi Addie, saw you over at xanga and poped over to see your sight. Sad post, I no of a few that are fighting cancer too. Not a fun thing to have or watch. It hits all age groups. One of my best friends wife has a brain tumer. She has about a year left in her life. They have been traveling to places she always wanted to go. SO sad! Live each day as there may not be a tomorrow!
thats good advice Joe... thanks for visiting the site
melissa - amanda told me... I dont think you are a bad friend, sometimes we just dont want to think about things like that... I want to go see him as soon as I can, not sure when that will be though...
hi addie. Sorry to have been a messenger of bad news. I just knew you would want to know. I wrote Jason a long email letting him know how much we cared for him then and now. I hope he recives in all in good time. I mailed it about 2 weeks ago.
He is strong and so brave. What a guy. I still have hope for a miracle. Please, go see him. You don't realise how luck you are to be able to do so. Being in the UK is really hard in knowing that I can't see him.
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